Not on the run

Now this isn't good.

You were injured, yes, but now you really could be back at it if you wanted to. The calf muscle still hurts, but you could be swimming/cycling etc and you're not.

You are a loser.

...

I was worried about how to keep this all quiet from people at home, but that's not an issue if you're not running at all. So do I start again when I'm in Vancouver, just 6 weeks training? Do I simply look for a marathon later in the year? I don't know. Seattle feels right, but I don't want to injure myself permanently. I could manage a slow 26 miles no bother, if you go slow you can run for ever, but I want to get 4 hours. All the advice says just finishing is enough, but I'd want to be proud of my time.

Realistically I'm not going to be running until Oct, which is pathetic.

Snickering is very much allowed this time.